Let's face it, I can never be comfortable with people skipping school and such. It could be such a vagary for me yet others treat it like a norm. So imagine how I would feel if a student wants tuition with me on the day she skipped school.

I don't know why people like to give school a miss. Ok sure the workload could be a nightmare but there's so many reasons as to NOT miss it. You know, there's friends and potential friends to socialise with, teachers to annoy, lectures to sleep, soccer to play. You get the gist. For me, it's because it kept me away from boredom. And also since there's nothing much at home that is worth skipping school (TV is the most unoriginal and boring reason for that).
To each their own I suppose.


So fast, so fast. One moment we celebrate the end of grueling weekday and the next it is already the middle of a week. I feel like life's playing fast forward on me and I've got to be on my toes to catch up.
I was thinking of off day tomorrow, just me myself and I by the breaks reading a Michael Connelly's paperback when Adela asked for a session tomorrow. Part of me wants to moan no but part of me knows that she's in deep shit if she doesn't have twice a week (for someone who doesn't know composite functions existed). You know these are the times conscience and guilt comes to play when they are not needed.
Screw you two.


I spend almost the day alone at home with pangs of hunger but too lazy to move and make a decent lunch for myself. I am a disgrace but the pull of a good book is too strong. Haha have to do something with my habits.


Nowadays the weather's taken a turn. I wonder if anyone stopped singing that it didn't rain. I prefer this weather, warm yet a strong gust comes about.
Lovely weather, a perfect excuse to lie idle somewhere near water, even a soak in a nice big bathtub or jacuzzi would be good. Sadly I haven't the amenities.



But that's ok because the happiest people in the world aren't the richest, but those who makes use of what they have.

And I'll be damned if I don't make myself happy (:

ofblack&white
9:52 PM

Hello hello today is the day the new student Adela comes for Math. She's bad in the sense she doesn't even know what f-inverse is but she's good in the sense she cottons on fast.


I went to Bedok Interchange's pasarmalam for a walkabout and sadly they don't sell batik pants, nor do they sell that carve-a-name thingy. I haven't found a replacement for my cousin's broken one. And anyway nice Ramlee burgers there love love them soooo! I saw nice little pouches that Tisya and Nur would like. Didn't get them any yet because the colour issue would be a problem.


Made my way to Zone X and they don't sell Power Smash3 cards either ): No matter I had a very very superb exhibition match with some unknown guy. Went until 4 sets with tie break and all. It was such a close match my hands were shivering. Very good game and I won. Haha! I heard him shout in anguish. LOL.


Tuition in school and all, usual walk home with Mun and bothering of cats. There's the mixed coloured cat behind my apartment block that is SO mischievous it kept pouncing at other cat's tails. I tickled it so much it scratched me till it tore my skin. In other words, blood. It has been so long since a cat actually did that to me. I'm quite surprised but no matter. Maybe I shouldn't have tickled it so much. But it's just so cheeky, the cat!


Qis was angsty and thus a rare phone call came by. When she's angsty she talks nineteen to dozen and boy it's hard to keep up and you couldn't ask her to repeat because it'll likely piss people off won't it? She's funny too when she's angry.
"I can't understand my own species (girls) whatever goes on in the mind and why do they do things while they say likewise." Or whatever that she says.
Next week or this Sunday, and I can meet the two of them again ((:

ofblack&white
9:35 PM

By the end of the week I felt rather spent; having to rush to tuition venues, going out, hastily marking papers at void decks, revising Math (the H2s are starting differentiation and integration already. H2 calculus is fun yet most painful) and all that. I survived 4 days without arcade already, we shall make it to a week. I had spend less than a hundred this week. Seeing that I go out rather often and such, that's an achievement. Bravo!
Spend less than 75$ the coming week.


Best of all, highlight of the day/week:
SOMEONE SMILED AND TALKED TO ME TODAY.
OHMYGOD CLOUD NINE PLEASE.


(: Happy day.

ofblack&white
1:38 PM

The day passed quite eventfully. So many bull in school.

Anyway I saw Cas and her friend, went to take their SGC. Had tuition in school with Anna and when it ended, Damsel joined the table, followed by Chaijing then Lucia and Lisa Fara Fifa Su Sya Joelyn Lynn almost all the players.

Haha so I was finally formally introduced to Yuen Mei (however you spell it) and very overly extroverted it scares me. News is, she wants tuition with me. Not only her, but three of her other friends whom I heard were copies of her. Die! Good income yes but DIE! Lol. There is Willy (what a name right) from her class who is super super super weird who does impersonations of a horse, dragon, the boogieman wearing condom, does the knee slide or whatever in the hallway of block A level 2. Hilarious I tell you.
Plus he has such a pale face I'd believe it if someone told me he's a vampire or what nonsense. Many laughs on that. Probably highlight of the day. I'm scared to have tuition with Yuen.


The testimonial match, in contrast, was so boring and uneventful, I could doze off. Haha borrriiing plus I feel very awkward around them. Joan is so rubbish and funny these days. How did I ever think she had the emotional range of a robot. Anyway Chaijing got verbally abused by me. Can't help it, I'm very peevish around her.


Mun bullies me so much ): She calls me tumbly. Watch out or the cheap tutor is going to increase the fees!
And I (will probably) have a new student in Adela as well.
Income, good!


But I got to work my ass off it. Four students tomorrow, two in two sessions. Got to sleep early to be focused for H2 MATH.



Cold cold day, inside out.
Can someone come warm me up?

ofblack&white
10:44 PM

The world proved to be yet again a dangerous place filled with vices of evil and what not. I was looking through Mariah Carey's old old videos like My All, Without You, Visions of Love and such, then compared it to her recent like We Belong Together, Butterfly, Boy (I need you). There is such a blatant contrast it hurts to see.
She used to be so BEAUTIFUL in the natural (no plastics) way, exuding such innocence and power in her voice, and clad in such polite clothing its hard to believe she is the way she is now.
Boob lady is an understatement to what she is now haha. Scantily-dressed reminds me (sorry to offend) of sluts and the likes. Selling her body instead of voice. Really saddens.

Plus Whitney Houston's almost bankrupt with her divorce and drug problems. Sigh. My favourite powervoices are falling in the most humiliating way.



I haven't trim my long nails yet. Urgh. Cold day. The tiles at home are cold. Maybe it's time to unearth the skull house slippers they gave me three years ago!

ofblack&white
11:22 PM

Simpsons The Movie was ok, laughable, but not so memorable. I want to watch horror shows next. Mayyee didn't buy that whole "Captivity is a romance show watch with me!" thing but oh well maybe one of the males might be interested in Vacancy or something as horrifying as them.


Had the day out with Naz and Syahril honestly we played the worst doubles match on VT3 in my opinion for the second one. Gah I am tempted to buy the Power Smash card or whatever. Can hone my tennis players. ANYWAY the three of us went to Borders for Potter book and down to One Raffles Place to get some prize Fatin won. Apparently it's my favourite board game, Scrabble. And so, sitting in BK, tiles neatly arranged on the rack, I whitewashed them (:

And that is probably the only game I can win them all.

I shall rule the world! Lol.

On a more cheesier note, I nearly made Syahril believe that Lestrange died by just fainting backwards. Ha. And annoy the crap out of him by not remembering who killed who in the story. I mean, it's just enough to know who died right?


Parenting; Sometimes to be a parent you tend to impose on your kids the things you like or would like to do. I remembered vaguely being scolded for playing soccer too much, yet being laughed and applauded for trying out tennis (my parents were quite squash and tennis players). Remembered that pursuing my interest in DnT and drawing was very much encouraged (both of them are in the engineer/technical sector and my dad a fleetingly renowned artist). Yet trying to take up another language are sometimes frowned upon. I wonder if parents raise up their kids to do whatever they could not when they were young, or if they raise us up to be responsible adults. I think its a mix of both, for my case.

But to parents who have children for the former reason,
I'd suggest you buy Sims and leave the upbringing to orphanages.
They'll do a better job at what you were supposed to do.



I am
blind because I can see none but you.
Deaf
since I hear none but you.

Dead,
for I feel nothing inside
but you.

ofblack&white
11:51 PM

My days are nothing short of simple yet pleasant. When we walked home I saw this SO ADORABLE kitten and I was THIS close to touching it. It's so cute! That curiosity that wide-eyed look that BIG EARS. In love! Oh Ish is such a nice person to teach somewhat like Mun but much politer (remember your Ps and Qs Mun!) hahaha.


Such cold cold weather a joy to lie on bed and think of happy thoughts (if they ever come my way).


I was watching some war movie when it struck me. You know the part where the women and children are (supposedly) in a safe place while the men goes out to save the day. And there's this scene where the 10,000 strong enemy made a loud thump over and over again. I momentarily put myself in the shoes of a child at that time and wondered what would the parent answer if the child were to say is everything going to be fine? I don't know, Singapore is such a safe place you don't have to worry about anything much. Dengue is about the only imminent threat. I wonder if there would ever be real fear piercing through. Maybe it could do some good. The day when there is no more hope for survival. I wonder how Singaporeans would react.


Hmm. Qis is a confused child. Poor soul.

ofblack&white
10:50 PM

Like planets. Your self is the sun. Your priorities are the planets of the solar system. Mercury will be top notch and Neptune will be the last. Let's be self-centered enough to say that things revolves around us; let it be family or friends, academic or pleasure. I wonder if priorities are like those planets; pre-destined, unchangeable.
I hope not.

That was very random. Anyway provate jokes (especially when they are SO lame) are very unappreciated, especially from the mouths of certain beings. Never you mind.


I was also wondering in the typically dreamy state of mine that if all the trees in the world when made into paper is enough to hold the words that I have for each person I would know. There's so much to say sometimes so little time. The little cheerful words that brighten up other people's days are now so sparse seeing that everyone is so caught up in their own solar systems. I managed to appreciate that from few grateful people, simple words that acted like a beacon for the day.


I wonder how could I possibly spent 1.4k in 3 months, and if it is ever possible for me to cuff my hands and not spend. From today, I think it IS possible. Anything is possible when you put your mind to it, no?


How odd. Strange how people move in and out of our lives. They are like seasons, you know. Certain people stick by certain times of the year and what nonsense. Haha! I pray that one would stay by.


Hmm. With every sunset I still feel quite unstable. I wonder why. And anyway chilly days plagued my days I don't actually have much complains about it save fo the fact it is very erratic. Like how it could get relatively warm in the afternoon yet swings into some thunderstorm mood in an hour.


Somehow being a tutor gives me a certain sense of satisfaction, like I could finally be a form of 'hope', if I'm allowed to go that far, to people who are hopeless in whatever. I used to feel helpless. When others need help all I could offer were empty words of encouragement that only yearns to soothe but do naught. Haha now I solve problems! How nice.

Though I have some pull towards other profession. Lets not reveal it yet.


I listened to U2 songs and most of the lyrics depicted the world's suffering, the dirty past or whatever. They have a drive to do what they are doing. I think they are contented with making music to inspire and save the world (read: Bono). I envy them because they are already contented. I am not, I still don't know what I am looking for! I think I think too far into the future but don't you do that to ensure a good future? Haha as you could already see, whatever that comes to my mind I type it down right away, so this entry is rather messy and such.

But yes, I am not contented. I feel like I could do something more but what I don't know. Maybe I could run marathons? Ok that's something I'm sure as hell not be able to do.


Hmm... Something needs to be done but I can't quite put a finger to it.


Oh yes I had the cheesiest dinner just now. Love, pizza. Haha!


You know all the games available around these days boast the best graphic they could master. All the FPS (first-person shooting) games realistically made and all the minor details painstakingly covered. Or those strategy games like Age Of Empires and such. Many tactical skills needed to be able to win. On the good side, it polishes the talent engraved in one. On the other, and I think somewhat disturbing, side do these games actually honed these analatical and tactical skills for war and destruction? Sometimes I overhead boys discussing how America should do war on Iraq (not exactly the sunniest of conversations) based on whatever game they played. Nowadays kids are more immune to the senseless killings and mass murder taken place all over the globe because I think they are in that been-there-done-that attitude. Only thing is it all took place in the computer screen.
And yes gamers can come screaming and hurling vulgarities for my views but I came to that conclusion because I feel like I am made that way. All the years of classic Red Alerts, CounterStrikes, Tenchus, all the many decapitations, headshots (that we scored bonus points for) and torture made me more laidback and unaffected to what is going on all over.

Lol. Now I think I should stick to Sims or some sports game.


Beneath the noise
Below the din
I hear a voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
you took me in."

ofblack&white
1:14 AM

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows.
Yes it shows.


No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think about my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know


Can't live
If living is without you
Can't give
Can't give anymore.

ofblack&white
11:39 PM

You know, sleeping at 4 in the morning doesn't do you any good, especially when you're having religious classes at 0815 hrs the next morning. Awfully groggy.
Really sucky feeling.


Anyway it's been good lately. Lynn and I were pretty good girl guides yesterday. I shan't elaborate. I got a little teddy at her treat ((: We went Popular and lo behold the 7th installment to Harry Potter is staring right into me so how could I not get it.

And there's the reason why I slept at 4. I read voraciously, as I've known to read good books like Connelly's or Brown's. I started at 5 in the aft and finished at 4 in the morning. Very very satisfying read. A lot of surprises left right and centre. So delightful that it's glued to my hands. I really enjoyed it. Though it's good I do find a flaw or two in her writing, which was her writing style itself. More often than not I get slightly confused with the logic of how Harry triumphs and Voldermort not. But still, very good read!


And very much worth the glassy expression I left for all my teachers in the morning, stoned to death. Haha!


It has been rather cold and chilly. Pros and cons to it of course. It is lovely when it comes in nice soft drizzle. But once it started to howl I am annoyed because I cannot leave house. And you know how cranky I am when I don't.



In a certain blog a certain friend ponders about the loyalty of her friends, would her friends ever be with her should there come the need.

All I can say is,
I am here.

ofblack&white
4:03 PM

Hello world it was quite an uneventful yet fairly nice. I had tuition with Anna and anyway it's obviously not the reason why I'm cheerful. She's hardly the reason haha! I'm just glad (never knew I'd say this) to see faces that I could talk to like Munirah aka Pussycat and Lynn Tan.

They reckoned I think too much. And my inability to say no is my bane in life. Well, when two of my 'best friends' asked me for the password to this blog suddenly saying no became SO easy. Ha. Ok so I am making a big mess out of my life but I shan't think too far and well just think of the present not future.



I got a nice box of glazed doughnuts waiting to be guzzled down. One is topped with Oreo. Ya.


Though I still wished some things are just simplified but Life being as it is, simplified isn't in it's dictionary.
How awful, no?


Nice day with many awfully nice hugs from everyone. I went to the loo and had a disturbing toilet conversation with Madam Sa'adiah. I saw Hafiz and Kak Nor and Ida.
Best of all, I had a pretty sight when I exited the loo, and when I left school. (:


I needed a dream, when it all seemed to go bad.
Then I'd find you...

ofblack&white
10:25 PM

But don't change your hair for me
Not if you care for me.
Stay, little valentine, stay.

ofblack&white
11:19 PM

Sigh. I only got to sleep about 5 and wake at 9. Cranky just about describes the mood for the day.


Lunch at Popeye's and some long talk. Nadz asked me if I am satisfied with life and that got some gears moving. I don't know, I don't think so because there is so much more things I want to do in life and right now I don't think I'll get any satisfaction when ten years down the road I look back at what I am at this moment.


I blew off tons of steam at Fana and killed the rage on VT3. Honestly, how can a tiny little problem blew up to biblical proportions is just unbelievable.

And smothered. I feel so fucking smothered it would be better if you put a pillow down my face.


Hello, I am making the most stupid mistake of my life and I don't know if it's possible to reverse it.


Not the best of days, not the best of it.

ofblack&white
11:00 PM

I don't know what's the deal. I am so exhausted yet my body refuses to sleep.
Talk about being stubborn.

But please, dear Allah, PLEASE just please let me fall asleep, such torment I could not bear. Sleep is my only form of escape from THINKING (besides having any of you whacking my brains out till I'm a veggie)and I am deprived of it. If I have Mary and her little lambs prancing in my head I don't mind, but not nightmares. Not nightmares when I'm conscious and those annoying ANNOYING painful flashbacks that's on playback. If my computer is acting remotely normal I don't mind but NO it's so bitchy right now and the tube doesn't provide much solace either.


Fuck lah bad bad days I anticipate them coming in torrents because that's how bad days come by for me (as of good days too).
I HATE POST-MENSTRUAL FUCKING SYNDROME BECAUSE IT MESSES UP MY WHOLE BIOLOGICAL CLOCK, FOOD INTAKE AND EMOTIONS.


I have a long day ahead and I'm not asleep yet even when it's four. What a BRILLIANT way to start my day. You know, simply perfect.
It's these days when I snap, and bite. Really bite your arm off if you get on my nerves.

Watch out students you all better wear space suits to save yourself from looking like a leper.

ofblack&white
3:45 AM

I went down and I liked what I saw.
Anyway there's this coolio game Virtua Tennis 3 which just got me hooked please. I just don't know how to lob the stupid thing.


Today is a day about myself. Going out by myself, getting lost by myself, enjoying games and lunch by myself. I like it. I like that lone company with songs and thoughts that ran through my head like those fast British trains. Though I was just being random and messaged Mayyee. Imagine the shock when I receive some text message about internet sms chat. Thought I had the wrong number but it's her alright. Imagine her being more high-tech scares me. Haha! And the nerves she's got calling me the frog in the well the turtle in the mountain whatev. What is it with the animals I wonder. I shall complete House Of Dead 4 for you then you can take a chair/couch/bed/whatev with you and watch me. Ha!



Tuition till 1930 hrs was definitely mentally tiring. Need to step up with the math-stamina bull you know?


I need a scapegoat to get angry with. I don't know why but there's anger boiling on the surface. It's highly disturbing to feel this way when there is no reason to be. Like I need a punching bag to vent it out rather than it being pent up. I feel it isn't fair on any human being to be my scapegoat. Maybe for the primary reason that humans judge. I need a robot. You know, the type who would nod their head to every damn thing I say but it would be different.

Perspectives, they are the bane of my life. I need a non-judgemental someone badly. BADLY. And no it wouldn't be of any use if you were to come up to me and say "talk to me, I won't be swayed" cause I don't buy that anymore.
Then again I myself am judgemental so of course I wouldn't have that someone because
YOU'LL ONLY GET WHAT YOU GIVE.
You know, the whole do unto others what you want others to do unto you nonsense.


Sigh I am feeling rather angsty right now and thankfully I am alone. Or else I'll spit and hiss like some possessed cat and piss the hell out of everyone.

Boo to angst.

ofblack&white
8:54 PM

Oh yes I bought a k610i yesterday at 38$. Quite a bargain, not that I needed some high-end phone, seeing I don't use half of the functions. Haha!



I went for my weekly Kovan Macs, with Lynn and Pei En. Lynn is going to die of diabetes; a large coke, hot fudge sundae and french fries. Watch out ah adik I told you NO COKE you don't listen. Your arteries are being blocked as we speak. And she so love to moan at me. Like a sex queen. Haha she misses moaning at me I know. ((: Fun to be sarcastic to her.

Anyway I'll tell you full story when I meet you lah didn't have time just now.



I bought myself a mouse too. For my fried one. The new one has a lighted scroll-wheel. It changes colour everytime! Haha I love colours. It's changing to pink then to red then to purple then to blue then to yellow as I type. LOL.


I saw an advert on TV about The King And I musical. I SO WANT TO WATCH THAT.



I went to the paternal grandma's yesterday since the new family member came by, Kak Shereen. She's the newly wed to my uncle. Anyway in the wedding photos I SAW MY 4J HUDA. Haha the world is small!


History Channel 08 on the cable. I really want to catch the four part documentary about (guess what) the Tsars and their long lifestory. How interesting. Why didn't they come up with the channel when I was taking History? Sigh.



When I saw the break of day
Wish that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand.

ofblack&white
7:35 PM

Hello world good things come to good girls.

I AM A GOOD GIRL.


I am almost confirmed going into Stansfield College for MATHEMATICS AND ECONOMICS (BSc) Degree. ((: It's like a hazy dream come true because I so LOVE those subjects. Though I don't know where I can go from there. A financial economist or whatever nonsense. I want to teach. Haha. Start schooling in September.


Sorry for yesterday's random post. Anyway if my parents have the time (which they probably will for their only daughter regardless how nice/pretty/filial/whatever she is) I'll be getting a Sony Ericcson today. I pray so! And a new mouse for my fried one.


Yesterday I bought Chris Botti's To Love Again and Norah Jones' Come Away With Me. Very beautiful. Simply beautiful. Oh yea I did mention I made a dinosaur yesterday? It totally stomp Lorreta's white-nosed Snoopy. Ha!


We should go on a trip! Redang! All is left is the consent from parents. Which I don't see it as an easy thing but well when there's a will there's a WAY!
Ok I just hope our parents don't ask each other who's idea it is.

ofblack&white
11:28 AM

I had the day out with Winnie and Loretta; you know long lunches the works.
And I made a little plastic dinosaur. From the plastic art shop! So pretty.


Genuine.
It is so lovely to have someone asking you genuinely about your day.
Have him listen to you genuinely.
Have him to care.

You know, somehow the reason that kept me off boys/guys/men is because all they ever care about is themselves. Their fat ego. They want everyone to listen to them, to think they're ALWAYS right, to always say they are the best.
Having the upper hand. Being superior.


With him, it's slightly different. He cares. He genuinely cares. Never gets absurdly horny. Never rambled on about how great he is. Just humble, kind, funny. Makes me laugh. I like that in a person. He admits his mistakes in a self-depreciating manner, that makes it all seem real. Not those annoying sarcasm.

Maybe because it's real.


And maybe it's time I give him a chance.

ofblack&white
10:13 PM

Harry Potter is good, Daniel Radcliffe has a great body. Emma Watson has nice everything. My God is it even possible to have someone as stunning as that is beyond comprehension, really. Plus that sexy accent. Like whoaa.


Poor Vincent had to endure my warblings. I sang songs that he coincidently did not like, like your ever-classic BSB, Air Supply and such. Fun stress-reliever. Oh well.



Oh ya. When I took off my shirt just now I found a caterpillar on my collar and I nearly fainted. Like whathefuck I hate those crawly creatures.



You know, these cold rainy days never fail to dampen me and my thoughts. Soggy. Haha and melancholic and all. Gah. Being all sad and sappy. Again, I know someone is going to scream "NADIRAH are you out of your freaking mind?!" but I just can't cut the ropes. Like kept looking back and dwell in the memories. Long gone but not forgotten. Not at all. Like funny, I played all the 'painful' songs on iPod and the brain, oh joy how wonderful a creation it is, sends those funny fugly messages to the nerves and brought back that pain and joy at the same time.

I don't make sense sometimes.



When you walk away
I count the steps that you take.
Do you know how much I need you right now?

ofblack&white
11:19 PM

Head hurts. I hate waking up to this kind of start. You know, where your head thumps like having stampedes. Gahh.


Yesterday was a long day. I went to see grandad yesterday. Poor him. He's so bored all alone in the SICU. Under observation. Something about his pancreas having infection. Bla to all the medical gibberish. I'm glad to see him. He looks fine, with that slight fever. Bought for him NewPaper (: Got nice stubbles all over. I told him to not shave and keep a beard for once! Think he could be discharge today or tomorrow.


I went to Parkway and treated Mima to lunch since her birthday's last week. Quite a walking embarrassment. When she say she wants hot water, it doesn't mean warm, but really hot. Must see that smoke coming up. LOL.


My right knee is giving me a helluva problem. I didn't do anything strenuous lately please.
And yay to Jien who MIGHT be burning me MGS2. Hamzah is nice enough to check it out for me too ((:

I had a peculiar dream again. I remember it left me so empty. Like I lost something. That particular sadness. I don't like it.


Anyway have to finish some work before I head off. Yet my head hurts still.


I thought this is the one for me
But you're already mine.

ofblack&white
9:40 AM

Does money really make you happy?


Just now we met at 1030 (thankfully I was picked up) and ate brunch. And played pool. And arcade. All of which could have hurt my income. He paid for everything, but I didn't like him any more, or any less. Which comes to the point of answering the question. Because I wasn't at all comfortable with being treated all the time, it's quite something to get used to. I know you all would be gasping in shock or whatever nonsense have you. So, (as ms Koh taught us) I disagree with the statement to a large extent.

Whatever crap. I'm not writing History essays right.



So finally I am starting tuition today. Angsty Munirah got him sending me to school in a cab. She's so full of nonsense and is so noisy, which makes it fun. And I got gigantic hugs from that Lynn Tan. Another noisy person. Anyway Vincent got marathons from me. I got to be serious about pushing him. Gave a lot of timed practices. Fun for me, not for him.


I felt quite feverish in the morning and my right knee hurts monsters. Gah.

Anyway KAT you know how much more I will love you (in a platonic way before you have wild ideas) if you find me that GAMEBOY so I can finally play Pokemon!


Yay I booked Harry Potter tickets for Thursday.



The only man I love is sick, in hospital and may have to do undergo operation tomorrow. I really want to cry but what good can it do? I really hope he is okay... He'd better be because I love him so. I don't even get to visit him today ) :

ofblack&white
9:14 PM

Home at last. It's beginning to be quite a habit to go out at twelve and back home at 9 nearing 10. I had lunch with Rachel Wong Shuli and Chua Huiqi at Kovan. Very spontaneous since I was hungry till I could eat cows at the rate of knots. I love love meeting them so full of nonsense and so HUGGABLE. Huiqi wants to sew me a Tigger pouch hahaha. At the rate that's she's cross-stitching I so worry for her A levels.


Sat down at Kovan macs to finish up work when Zarifah Jeanette and Anna came around the corner. Sit down, chit chatty and I headed off to Popular to get TYS for my students but sad they have the lousiest ones.


Waiyee called me and typically I was late. Bad impression lol, three times out with her three times I'm late. Tsk. I was QUITE lost at Bugis she laughed at my expense. The cheek. The three of us had nice dinner and the sisters came to the conclusion I had dentures. Like -.- Seriously. The arcade there is BIG. I love it please. Though they don't have After Burner but other than that it's good. We played Bishi Bashi. Mayyee sucked big time. Some walk around Bugis Street. I was made lost again. They have the most ludicrous lingerie ever. Like a frog on the panties. Honestly. Tried looking for Elizabeth Arden's After Five but was in vain. Hugo Boss' Femme is good. Really good. Light yet lingering. ((: Then we bid farewell (lol). Apparently the younger sister don't like to change trains. Lol. Many tops nice and cheap at Bugis, I eyed them already. Haha the two of them can be so lame it's beyond me.



Humans. We are suppose to make mistakes. We are suppose to falter. Sometimes what actions done by others may seem irrational to us but just in their eyes. What we hold important to us may be taken by others simply as a matter of peripheral interest. It's all about perspective. I always try to bear in mind to think as how others may perceive them but at the end of the day our minds will instinctively stick to our initial point of views. It's hard to understand people, especially those of different age groups (aka parents), and their reasons behind every action. Maybe the best way to deal with it is to take it into our stride and pray we would understand them as time pass and as we mature.


I typed that yesterday but before I got a chance to post it the computer shut down on me. How nice, no? Anyway that goes out to you (:


How I wished things were made simple. That I could love the right person easily...

ofblack&white
9:44 PM

I simply could not believe just HOW an 18 seed Bartoli defeated my number 1 seed Justine Henin. Maybe the world is going bonkers.


Or maybe Justine should just cut down her unforced and do something with her forehand.
Grrr.

Just when I stayed up to watch that match. Goodbye Wimbledon.

ofblack&white
2:10 AM

My first day back out even with that annoying cough. Numerous things happen in the week, too depressing/frustrating to talk about but hey, we have a share of good and bad in our lives, no?

Today is all about tutoring, watching Transformers(awesome by the way), bit of arcade and pool of course. Zhong is by far the most... lucky(taiko) player in the planet. Kat went off earlier so I got stuck with Zhong and it was a stupid yet hilarious affair about taxi queues, getting rooms/hotels/islands for couples making out in public and... rushing.




So far so good. Tired. Tired but happy.


Anyway all the hype about this Live 8 or something. The big concert around the world for 24 hours to promote the environmental crisis Mother Earth have been experiencing. Honestly, my opinion about it is bullshit. Yes there's the effort to promote awareness about global warming and such yidiyada how noble. -.- Like hey, a concert? A CONCERT? I think the last thing the world need is a concert that uses tons of power just to support lighting and amps and like one of the members of Arctic Monkeys said "we're jetting around in airplanes." Talk about heavy irony. Promoting environmental crisis through a waste of electricity/power? Hello!

And why singers? Do they have a PhD on what, geography or something. Because I think it's rather silly listening to these... artists who spend so much on their cribs rides whatever nonsense they can spend on. I know its like calling a pot kettle black, me lecturing on spending but hey I don't dump a car just because they don't match my heels. I don't see the majority of them as role models either but conversely people we should never emulate(how many of their videos exude sexual implications?). Sadly my cousins fall prey to that already.

Maybe I could make my own protests about this? Haha that beats wasting kilowatts on oooh a concer.
Cool! Maybe I can appear on tv or something.

... Naff.

ofblack&white
11:23 PM

Tell me I am mental. How can I be emotionally-attached to someone else and be physically-attached to another is simply, BEYOND me.

ofblack&white
9:41 PM

KL was, as usual, a blast; having run up the bill for Saturday dinner till 650+ amongst the eleven of us, got materials and stuff for (ok I know it's very far fetched) Raya . Few tops from here and there you know how LOVELY the KLCC can be. Isetan St Michaels Zara Topshop I can rattle off the names in a second.


Anyway I have an eye wide open for a certain something located at the basement of Parkway. Tomorrow.


Talking about tomorrow, it's time for the 'regime'. I'm going to jog around the area then up the stairs home. That's eleven storeys but I know I can manage.




I can say this: I never regret doing and saying whatever. Not once.

ofblack&white
10:51 PM